Flu Blues

I recently fell ill with the flu.  Please do not yell at me for not getting a flu shot, I did.  As so many of us have come to realize this winter, the flu shot does not cover all the strains this year and we have an epidemic.  Fortunately, the shot did lessen the effects so I was not totally miserable and my fever stayed below 101 degrees.

Flu hits hard, even weak flu and I spent most of the first four days in bed.  I had lots of time on my hands, lots.  TV gets old, Facebook repetitive, reading is a little tough... so I thought, between naps and then I thought more.  I worried and obsessed over things I had said the day before my temperature rose; dumb things, really dumb things.  I ached, some from the flu, but mostly from verbal regret, unfettered by new interactions.

Today, I saw a couple of the people in whose presence I had verbally embarrassed myself. I apologized for my clumsiness and stupidity and the possible offense I had precipitated in them.  It is completely possible that the dear people I spoke with today plead generous ignorance out of kindness. It might well be that they had been too busy with their own versions of the flu or other business, that they actually did not recall, or care, if I had been a less than evolved human.  Thank goodness and their good natures, that I am redeemed!

"Too much time on my hands," never too many friends, glad I didn't lose any while I learned yet another painful lesson.  I am still becoming human and I am working hard on it too! Perhaps the flu slowed me down and shut me up at just the right moment.  Ah-choo, ah-choo, thank you flu? God bless you too.